Dear Soulmate

Dear Soulmate,

Where are you?? It seems as if I have been searching for you my entire adult life. I am writing this so you will know that I am not giving up on my search for you. I know you wont give up on me either. Sometimes I wonder if we may have already met, maybe in passing. We might have even had a moment of recognition and realization, but we were so busy in our daily lives that it became a passing thought. A look and smile and nothing more. Other times I feel you are probably out there just wondering when I will drop into your life.

Noone seems to believe in us anymore. Noone believes in true love anymore, especially that magical kind-of love that you and I share. You know my heart has some bruises around it too, but the wounds don't penetrate deep enough to still my heart, for it beats to love you. Please be patient with me though when we meet because it may take me some time to completely open up to you. You and I both know it will be worth while in the end. I have had some disappointments in love as I am sure you have too. Finding you has been a long, hard road. I have taken several paths and wrong turns. There have been many ups and downs. I have met some wonderful people though along the way to finding you. I have made a lot of friends. I have met a lot of great individuals and then some not so great. We both know that for the majority most people are decent. I am glad you have been so dedicated in your search for me, as I have been with you. I am also glad that your belief in "true love" has never wavered. I know you have a lot of faith in God, as I do. Because God is Love. His greatest gift to us and for us. Love is the closest to Heaven we will ever get here on this earth, don't you agree?

I have to tell you something, and I know you will understand, as you may have faced the same on your journey to finding me. I did get married, and yes divorced. I guess along the way to finding you I got sidetracked, and being immature, I married out of desperation. The search for you has been long, and I wasn't sure that I would ever find you, so I settled {for a moment}. I know you mirror me and you take commitment to heart. I tried to make the most of my mistake and really stick it out, but in the end I couldn't give up on you. I will give my ex the respect and dignity he deserves though because he has been a good man, just us together wasn't good. I know you believe in marriage though and take those vows seriously, as I did and do. You know I did try my very best as I will with you. I know in my heart though that with us it wont be quite as hard, marriage is hard work but your heart has to be in it. With us it is true and pure and we will fight to keep our relationship deep and we will have a wonderful partnership. You will be my best friend and I will be yours. We will have the same beliefs and a great love of life. I believe my failed marriage was a life test and there were lessons to be learned and I have learned, as I know you have too, if you found yourself where I was.

I know you will accept my son as your own, and if you have children, you know I will accept them as my own. How could we not accept each others kids when they are an extension of us? I know you are a great father and that this is a priority to you. If you are not a dad yet, I know you will be a great one because love involves family. I know you have a lot of family values. My friends have become very important in my life in your absence. I really wouldn't know what to do without them. They really are an extension of my real family. I know you understand this all to well though because you really value friendship and realize that these are some of the most important relationships you will ever make. I know you like to socialize too. I really miss you, can't wait to see you and find you. I can't wait for the opportunity to look into your eyes, feel safe in your arms and know I have finally, FINALLY found you. Until that day just know I am searching for you as you are me and I will never give up on you, us or true love.

-Waiting in WV-

Vaughn Pascal